When it is that time of your life when you have a second reunion and start to gather the troops (that were barely on Facebook in 2007)…this is when you realise just how fragile your life is.
A list that says IN MEMORIAM
I never thought that I would see five names on the memoriam list after 20 years. There was Albe who died when we were st 7 or 8 and then 5 years after school, another.
Accidents happen, it is part of modern life. What really hit me was someone that I used to be friends with – we even went on holidays (with our parents) to Botswana, Zimbabwe and Zambia. He loved fishing, a really chilled dude. He committed suicide in 2012 – and I’m struggling to understand what could have gone so wrong for such a nice person.
I’ve probably mentioned it before, I’ve been in 2 primary schools – and obviously until 1988 I had friends that I grew up with. They came to my birthday parties, our parents were friends, went to the same church and primary school – and then we left. I made new friends and life went on.
I would still sometimes think about my childhood friends from before the move and still chuckled at the things we did. I loved that I was friends with a red-haired girl and the dominee’s twins. These people stuck in my mind all these years…and then last week I got a message from my mom via family that one of the twins committed suicide.
The whole week I’ve been thinking there is a twin out there that lost his one half. That half was the more fun-loving one that used to play jokes on me all the time. How did he hide the darkness in him so well – and why did he not talk to someone. He had someone that would literally do anything for him, that he was always close to.
I know that the matrics from ’97 from his hometown will now have to add him to their in memoriam list. They would still see his twin…
Suicide is never the answer
We’ve all been there, asked ourselves if this is really worth it, saw only the bad in our lives. Thought about how much easier it would be if you just didn’t have to deal with it anymore.
When you end it, it doesn’t end for the people you leave behind. They will forever wonder how they could’ve prevented it. How they didn’t see…
Before you think suicide is your last or only option, reach out to someone.
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Suicide breaks my heart. It must be the absolute loneliest way to die. Everyone just needs to be involved in their loved ones’ lives. That’s how these unnecessary deaths will be prevented.,
It is so sad that that seemed like the only option