It’s the night before Christmas and as lay on my bed with only my cat (Sandton) I had time to reflect on our last few years without a Christmas tree.

I’m lucky. 

I have an amazing husband that stuck by me through 6 years of fertility treatments, tears and more than just a few outbursts.

I got to travel with my oldest daughter, husband and my parents on Reunion Island before my mom got really sick. Plus my parents got to meet my little victory this week.

This year I have 2 daughters. They weren’t supposed to be possible, but they are here and they are mine. Because of them I finally felt like a Christmas tree 🙂

…but there was also heartbreak

I lost my best friend on 12 December 2016. He was there for me for 16 years and I know towards the end he fought to stay. His name was Genie and I had him from when he was just a 15 minute old kitten. I know most people won’t understand, but to me he was my person.

None of my grandparents got to meet my kids. It feels like forever since I had to say goodbye to my last Ouma. She will forever be remembered by my youngest’s second name.

…and I’m almost done

Every great dream begins with a dreamer. Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world. 
Harriet Tubman

I also had a good business year – or 2 – since leaving the corporate world. I could never have dreamt to have landed the clients that I did or to have more time to spend with the people I love or do the things I never seemed to have time for.

Highlights in my blogging life included working with some amazing brands and getting to know some amazing women.

My biggest shoutouts go to the Optiphi team and the products that are making it big everywhere including Europe – plus their PR team 121 Jamming; Then also to 2 brands from my home province, Limpopo, BaoCare and Tsonga Textiles… Thank you Freebees PR for introducing me to them; I also have only love to send out to Matsimela for all the good work and gifts that landed on my doorstep. My mom always asks if I can’t get her more bath salts!; Twiga PR for giving me an amazing opportunity to interview the national women’s cricket team and making sure my desk is filled with Prima Toys that I’m supposed to share with Lexa; The good people from Nespresso that fuel my rediscovered coffee habits; and Bos for the energy boosts now that I don’t sleep (my office fridge is stocked)… plus Entertainer app for making sure we can still do date lunches and afford Starbucks!

In all seriousness tho, thank you for reading because without you this is just another blog that may never have inspired anyone.

So here is my promise… in 2019 I am going to do and write more about what makes me happy. I am not just a mom or that girl that used a surrogate, I am so much more and my blog will become an extension of that…


Susann is a travel, parenting, beauty and lifestyle blogger in Johannesburg, South Africa.

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