The last few months I realised a few things:
- I can count my friends on less than 2 hands
- You cannot rely on religious people to be selfless
- People do not understand what it is to get the “infertile forever” verdict
- People definitely do not know how hard it is to find a surrogate else they would be sharing
The past few months have been hell. I could have done with at least more of my friends just dropping an email to say pretty much anything – just so I know that they actually cared. That didn’t happen and now I can seriously say that I have cut down on even having them on my Facebook list of friends.
You would think that if you asked help from a church (or a few of them) to just put the word out that there is someone that needs a surrogate that they will oblige. Wrong. Churches don’t care, Christians aren’t selfless and I will never set foot in one of these places.
If one more person tries to tell me that “God has a plan” or that maybe it is for the best I will not keep my cool. (Seriously, I heard these things from my friends as well – I wonder how these tactless bastards would feel if they were in my shoes?) I also do not want to hear that anyone will pray for me, because there isn’t anybody up there…