The last 2 weeks have been hell for me. I found out that I am infertile and it really was a big sad heartbreak moment for me. I always dreamt of having my own 2 and now there is only a small possibility – if I can find a suitable surrogate.
I have not been able to focus on much else or had time to think of Valentine’s Day. This year, we will just go to the movies and watch ‘Pad Na Jou Hart’. No gifts. I am not in a celebratory mood.
I always thought that I had good friends and that they will be there for me when I needed them. I was wrong. I feel abandoned by my oldest friends.